Skip to main content

Provisions

I turn the key counter-clockwise, once, twice, three times, each turn accompanied by a satisfying click. I walk down the stone steps, avoiding the uneven bits that have eroded over time, my hand gliding across the wooden railing.

I step out into the sun, and my heart swells at its warmth and at the clear blue sky. I spring down the steps, turn left on the footpath, and turn left again onto the main road. In a few minutes, I will reach my destination. My tongue whispers various supplications. My steps are brisk and determined, but I am calm. I pass men, women, and children on my way, each carrying stories unknown to me.

I soon spot the cart. I give the greeting of peace as I approach, and the man standing there responds. I tear a plastic bag away and start placing potatoes inside. I choose the big ones after turning them over to examine them.

I walk over to the scales, placing the bag on one side and the two-kilogram weight on the other. The bag is heavier. I remove the smallest potato, and the scale inches upwards; equilibrium.

I select some cucumbers next -- the thinnest are the best -- and then some green peppers and then tomatoes. There aren’t many left; I gently comb through them, looking for any that are both red and firm.

People come and go around me, haggling and harping while they collect vegetables of their own. A lone man stops to ask for directions. (Someone always does.)

I suddenly remember that I wanted parsley. And bananas. The parsley is tied into a bunch with a stalk looped into a knot. The man cuts off the bananas with a curved knife.

When I pay, he doesn’t have change, so I take a few lemons instead of two pounds.

The man helps me pack the vegetables into the two cloth bags I’ve brought with me. I give the greeting of peace and walk away. He doesn’t hear me this time; he’s surrounded by customers making demands.

I go back the way I came. I thank Him for the provisions I’m carrying, for the money in my wallet, for the sunshine on a winter’s day.


(February 2020)

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

To school on a winter morning

I love the walks to school on winter mornings. The crisp weather, the leisurely stride, the friendly banter between my daughters and their cousin. Sometimes they link arms with her—not with each other, to be sure—and sometimes they take quick steps, trying to outpace each other. The puffy black jacket I bought a decade ago on another continent serves me well. Today, grey clouds loom above, but so far there is no rain. (It doesn’t take long for the streets to fill with water when it does rain, and then the walk turns into a delicate crisscrossing dance.) We’re approaching the school gate now. “Anyone want to hug and kiss me in public?” I quip. The girls politely decline, but they do say salam and “I love you.” I stand until they pass through the doors; both of them look at me and wave. I turn back, and soon I’m crossing a one-way road; I live in Egypt, so I look both ways. My way back is contemplative. I study all the greenery on my path—trees and bushes of various shapes and sizes. Som...

When I flew away

I flew away, one day, leaving you behind; you were not quite sixteen. There were ten years between us, and we shared a room for many of those years. And because of the age gap, you didn't get under my skin like the others... I remember the day you were born, and the jaundice lights they put you under, and your pitiful newborn cries. I couldn't stand to hear them and ran out of the room. Silly girl. Our oldest brother named you. He wanted you to have a strong name, like the woman who defended the Prophet in battle. And so it was. The little piece of flesh that came home with us from the hospital was called Nusaybah. You were Mom's sixth, and you were our baby as much as hers. Our old albums are peppered with photos of us carrying you, and you screaming your head off. One day, after she'd started you on solids, Mom asked me to put your baby food in a bowl of hot water, so it would be a suitable temperature. I was puzzled by the request, and when I asked for clarification,...

Heavy days

I remember it only in snatches, in images that I can bring to mind like screenshots from a movie -- rewind and wallow. They were heavy days, spent mostly at the computer, following closely how many had been shot -- and where -- until the shooting was in our neighbourhood, and we heard of three killed. I remember looking at my husband, our eyes connecting with the same thought. I remember us checking for recent Facebook activity just to know he was still alive. We found nothing. And those three words spoken on the phone, so simple but so shattering. It was the last two weeks of summer vacation, but the days crawled by, and whenever I lay down to sleep I thought of him and of those left behind. Now that new-school-year smell, the waxed floors felt like betrayal like the day my aunt died and I’d baked butter cookies. All who met me that first day expressed their condolences -- kind words and concerned faces -- and then turned to others to discuss their vacations, laughter replacing concer...