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On our knees

It doesn't take much to bring us to our knees;
the tiny does as well as the torrential.

Floods and fires do it,
but so do splinters, stubbed toes,
and unseen pathogens that ravage the world.

So many meanings have changed,
the unremarkable cough or sneeze inspiring suspicion,
the comforting handshake, shared meal, or conversation
tinged with anxiety,
the peace of solitude within four walls
broken.

We are all of us tyrants in our own way,
thinking we are clever and strong
and don’t need Him,
but it doesn't take much to bring us to our knees.

Must we be brought to our knees
to see our own frailty?
Must we be broken
to return to humbleness and gratitude?

Or can we seek His help, guidance, and forgiveness
on our knees?

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